I love you
I’m also a fucking pansy
I don’t have the balls to break up with her. If we break up I’ll make her do it. I’m selfish
“Just fuck up one time and be through it forever” rings through my mind all the time
Olivia’s still hung up on this shit. I might just go along with what she accuses me of to make it easier on myself. College is around the corner and I can’t afford distractions from soccer. I can’t imagine going from seeing her from every day to never, but isn’t it best to get used to it now? before soccer starts?
tomorrow I will be surrounded by the ones I love as I continue the sport I love onto the next level. I’m so fucking fortunate
On a more positive note, Febuary 6th is closer and closer. I’m getting my boys out of school to come watch me sign for UC Davis. If I get interviewed or asked anything I’ll shit myself